Summer

Summer has arrived and a lot of memories have come with it. The feeling when I use to come back to Bahrain for the summer and meet up with my friends. This year is very different; everyone I know is either leaving of have already left the country. Summer days have become boring with me going to work and the evenings are filled with my last couple of classes. Weekends are a total bore. I don’t like going out anymore; it’s very difficult for me to put up with people’s expectations. In a way it’s sickening me.

I’ve gone back to my old Iron Maiden and Megadeth CDs that I used to listen to when I was younger. Many of the lyrics I feel I have heard for the first time. Maybe it’s because I can actually relate to them now and I understand the deeper meaning to what they are saying.

Life has been tough the last couple of years. Things did not come or happen easily. I was hurt over and over by family and friends, and yet I still managed to make my way. Almost everyone doubts my instincts and the decision I have taken for my future but this time I am not letting go easily. I will do what I want to do even if people think I will fail. I don’t believe in failure, I believe in experiences and no matter what someone dies they learn. Sometime we learn with a cost and other times it comes easily, but they always say if you pay for something then only will you know it’s worth. Maybe I need to understand the worth of my current life and appreciate it later on in my life. Maybe then I will learn. But for now I need a change and its time.