Summer

Summer has arrived and a lot of memories have come with it. The feeling when I use to come back to Bahrain for the summer and meet up with my friends. This year is very different; everyone I know is either leaving of have already left the country. Summer days have become boring with me going to work and the evenings are filled with my last couple of classes. Weekends are a total bore. I don’t like going out anymore; it’s very difficult for me to put up with people’s expectations. In a way it’s sickening me.

I’ve gone back to my old Iron Maiden and Megadeth CDs that I used to listen to when I was younger. Many of the lyrics I feel I have heard for the first time. Maybe it’s because I can actually relate to them now and I understand the deeper meaning to what they are saying.

Life has been tough the last couple of years. Things did not come or happen easily. I was hurt over and over by family and friends, and yet I still managed to make my way. Almost everyone doubts my instincts and the decision I have taken for my future but this time I am not letting go easily. I will do what I want to do even if people think I will fail. I don’t believe in failure, I believe in experiences and no matter what someone dies they learn. Sometime we learn with a cost and other times it comes easily, but they always say if you pay for something then only will you know it’s worth. Maybe I need to understand the worth of my current life and appreciate it later on in my life. Maybe then I will learn. But for now I need a change and its time.

Living the Good Life

The last couple of days have been really good to me. Since my brother traveled with his family, I have taken over their property. I drive from their home to work and then go to university and later come back home and just chill out. I either go for a swim or lay back and watch a movie or documentary. I keep imagining the rest of my life this way, it is possible and it is good.

What else would anyone want I eat, sleep, make money and chill. Why do I need friends for? Friendship is really a headache; if you don’t call them they complain, if you call a lot your phone bill complains. If you go out with them, it’s always the same people talking about the same subjects sitting at the same table at the same coffee shop or restaurant all the time. It sickens me at times.

I’m looking forward to the coming month; a month to just chill and relax.

I’m living the good life!!

What the Future Holds

I resigned from work last week; something I wanted to do for so long. But now that I actually did it, I’m scared. I don’t know if that was the right decision. The last couple of years I worked so hard studying and working and being so active in out so called society and now what I do with it?? I’m leaving it all behind and walking away.

I’ve been hoping to get to go to IC since last year and have been thinking about it all the time; and now that I am going, I’m not that excited about it anymore.

Brazil? Germany? Iran? Japan? Bahrain? I don’t know what to do. It seems like no matter what I do I will never be happy because my parents are never happy with me.

Let’s see what the future holds; maybe something good will come out of it.

Difference between sexes

This man has always been succesful in making me laugh. Here is one of my favorites...

Turning 21

I always thought turning 21 would be amazing. Some are happy they can start driving, other happy they can start drinking legally! Some glad they can finally vote others to gamble and so on.

I just turned 21 last week and nothing good has come out of it. It somehow reminded people that I’m all grown up now, when I’m exactly the same person from 2 weeks ago.

It’s funny with grown ups, they tell you to act like an adult yet they treat you like a kid and when they have no other choice they tell you “your grown up, you know better”. It disgusts me.

Funny enough since last week all I can sing in my head is Britney Spears!!

Not a girl, Not yet a woman